a long recovery, mostly naps
I wake up, spend a bit of time out of bed, and then go right back in for several more hours. I look at the pile of pillows on the couch, just right for wrapping myself around, and do so. I doze. I avoid being awake.
I am doing this too much, I think, because of that last. I do need the rest, but there's a difference between resting because Alpha and resting because I want tomorrow to come faster, or dinner, or when roommates come home from work. Especially when I start beating myself up about not doing anything with my long days alone.
The only thing I'm worse at than unstructured time is unstructured time with a deadline to meet at the end of it. This isn't that, at least.
Now to get dressed and maybe just maybe head to the library.